I poured so much energy and focus into developing my Feminine ✨
I fell in love with her
And I pulled others into that vortex of flow and raw energy and power
And I spent a lot of time trying to exclusively feel good
To be in my pleasure
In a sense I was also in my purpose
But I wasn’t very directed
Or clear on the path forward
And I fought against structure
The kind that I wanted to escape from when I left corporate
And it took me a while, but I realized I had mistaken that type of structure for the Masculine
And I mistrusted it
Thinking it also meant all work and no play
And so I rebelled against my Masculine
Swinging back into pleasure
And denial of pain and purpose and the courage to walk my path
Yet in spite of the rapturous detours
I slowly continued to do my work
Discovering and then deepening in practices of surrender and unhooking and presence
Which empowered me to become more and more aware of and commingled with my mission and my path in Life
Little by little
Trusting it
Trusting what I was building
Trusting myself
And then one day I became aware of the most outrageous thought
And with a surprised, out-loud chuckle
I just had to own it
~I’m very much in my Masculine!~
My Divine Masculine
The part of me that is devoted to my Life’s purpose
That creates and holds boundaries so that I have time and space to connect and create in this world
The part that persists in holding the vision and committing and re-committing to walking my path
Even though this most likely means
I’ll stir up emotions and thoughts and memories I’d rather not experience again
My Masculine is what holds my Feminine in the pain
In the disappointment
In the frustration
In the fear
In the hopelessness
In whatever is being stirred up as I walk into the New
And ensures that I’m not overtaken by those internal barriers
That could otherwise surely take me off the trail for months or years
And in that Masculine holding
Something empowering and new and vital can come through
And I can live a full Life in the midst of it all
This part of me that is focused and holds in awareness everything that wants to be born through me,
Enables it all to be born
This beautiful, divine structure
That let’s my Divine Feminine (creativity and pleasure and love) flow ☯️✨🌊🌳🔥
Photo credit: Nicole Fiorentino