When I first realized what my deepest purpose in coaching was, I cried
I cried because my mind judged it as too much!
I had opened up to this purpose by creating an intention
And I received the awareness that my true work is with those who’ve experienced a Rupture—heart-wrenching breakup, job transition, death—that had cracked them open
And who passionately wanted to create deep intimacy (whatever that means for them) with a partner, a purpose and themselves—to have it all
Yet they were struggling with the inner obstacles that these desires stirred up
And I was struggling with the inner obstacles that this realization stirred up!
I also cried because my mind judged this as too much to have myself (yes, my ideal client is Me 😊)
And too much to facilitate with others
And yet I had opened myself up to this guidance
I wanted to be led right to what I’m supposed to bring into this world
What would help humanity the most
And what would let me have it all within the realm of my Purpose
And so I was guided to do what was necessary to begin this part of my journey
So I accessed the divine Feminine and
I learned to surrender—to let go—on a whole new level
Calling on a skill that I now facilitate with others
And I surrendered to the form that my work would take
And what I was committing to bringing into my Life
Not only that
I surrendered to all the internal obstacles that erupted in that brief moment of powerful awareness
~The sensations of fear that were triggered within my body
~The memories that were dragged out of the dark recesses of my unconscious from my past Ruptures
~The old thoughts generated by my mind that “nothing ever works out for me” and “I’m not good enough to do this and to have all this”
In surrendering
Those obstacles did not take me over and
I did not give in to them
Instead
And I scanned within myself and felt exactly where the pain from these obstacles occurred within my body
I used my senses to feel the shape of the pain within me
The temperature
The weight
The sensation
And
I stayed present with it as the watcher (the divine Masculine)
And with these dual energies I created distance from my thoughts and emotions
And I was freed up and empowered to begin this part of the Journey—with all the obstacles no longer stopping me or draining my energy, but coming along for the ride instead ✨✨
I used the Feminine energy of surrender to meet this challenge (along with the holding energy of the Masculine)
And I use it to face whatever my mind and resulting emotions resist and judge as “bad” or painful
It’s not that “bad” or painful things won’t ever happen
They will!
And that doesn’t mean we’re not doing it right!
It’s Life giving us opportunities to practice living as the deep Beings we are
To get better and better and better at Living—no matter what Life puts right before us
To surf the waves of Life—whether they are violently turbulent or blissfully ecstatic
Whether your beloved cat dies, your relationship implodes, you’re unclear on your Purpose or you’re stuck in a pandemic
That’s empowerment
We can choose to live Full Out, creating a context to have it all—to act like the people we want to be—with a partner, a Purpose and with ourselves
And not settle for a mediocre existence because our minds want us to stay safe (and therefore stunted)
The truth is
Our minds will try to continue to keep us “safe”
Right up until the day that we’re ready to leave this Life
And we’re tangled up in despair that we never really Lived ✨
In choosing aliveness
We can revel in the vast richness that is all of Life
This is the secret!
It’s all content—the “good” and the “bad”
It’s not us
Let’s be the context instead
The backdrop
Detach from it all
Live and act boldly in the direction of our desired intentions
Honoring it all
No longer resisting Life but
Trusting it
Letting it flow through us
Living
Like the divine Feminine 🌊💫💦🙌🏻
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In the video below, I share with you the true meaning of Surrender.
After watching it, download the daily practice meditation that I've created for you called Holding Emotions, so that you can also begin to empower yourself to continue to walk in your desired Life directions no matter what happens along the way, by developing the Divine Feminine skill of surrender.
Much love to you 🙏🏻♥️