I let my mind run my Life for years
Even when her thoughts created feelings of
Depression
Jealousy
Sadness
Anger
Frustration
She controlled me
I knew it and let it persist
Because I knew nothing else!
I was indoctrinated by my environment and our culture to live this way
I let my mind mercilessly compare me to others
~Rehash past wounds
~Act like a victim of my circumstances
~Block true learning in an effort to be “right”
~Easily think about giving up my dreams over and over and over again, when I hadn’t ever fully tried to Live them
I know now that my mind was only trying to protect me
But ironically it created misery
Before knowing this though
I tried to “fix” my thinking
I tried many things to wipe out what she said
Or reprogram her thoughts
With no long-term success
Because as I eventually learned (and repeatedly experienced)
There’s no delete button in the mind!
And then one day
I learned what I could do
I could unhook from her
I could get some distance and
See her words as just content in my Life
Just like leaves floating down on a stream
I learned that her words were only one part of my experience
In-this-moment
Those words weren’t Me
Even if I acted as if they were
Her words weren’t the Truth
—about anything, really
They were like a song playing in the background of my life that I could listen to
Or not
And I learned that I could let my mind prattle on
Endlessly
And instead of being held hostage by her words and what I took them to mean I could or couldn’t do
I could do what matters to me
Over and over and over again
I learned a secret that she won’t ever stop talking to me
Stopping her is not an option!
But I could step back and then choose to listen to her if she was being helpful
Or I could continue walking in the direction of what I wanted to stand for in Life
I became empowered to no longer let her unhelpful words dictate where I had to go
And I learned to let my desired, valued directions guide me instead 🙌🏻⚡️💘
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In the video below, I share with you my biggest awakening regarding my relationship to my mind and the practice that's empowered me the most.
After watching it, download the daily practice meditation that I've created for you called Leaves on a Stream, so that you can also begin to empower yourself to create a different relationship to your mind and develop deep intimacy with a partner, a purpose and yourself—no matter what obstacles your mind throws at you.
Much love to you 🙏🏻♥️